Insecure ¶noid + self-harming &dying .

#Np ; starlight tears - Kim Yoo Kyung(( Boys over flower OST ))

So long since i blogged !
So i shall start with a new topic ? ; Insecure &paranoid + self-harming

Apparently , i lose quite a number of friends . Basically just because of my attitude and stuff(s) and recently , i lost him , after you lose someone important , you feel like dying like literally you wants to self-harm and everything like literally scolding yourself for being useless and everything . So yeah , i have th same feeling . But when you self harm , think a thought , why are you cutting yourself or even abusing yourself ? You're you , you're not anyone else . You're perfect in your own ways , and do self-harming solve all these problem(s)? Th answer is definetely no . You're just abusing yourself and suffering more pain .

Maybe, you blamed yourself for not being good enough for th somebody . You cry because you're tired for not being good enough .. you feel like you're a burden to everyone literally your friend(s) your family member . You might think that you disappoint them but stop keeping everything to yourself , find someone you find her/him trustable to talk about it . Share it , dont feel embarass !

You might think , when you cut you feel a little better when you tried to cover its way hard . When you paranoid , you always think you're useless . I mean like why are you keeping all those problems to yourself ?! It wont help ! 

Next point , 

You feel that you're fat , terrible and some negative thinking , what you can do is change it ! Change for th better , stop waiting for miracles to happen . Yes , maybe i was once naive to think that miracles will happen lol omg im so naive . BUT DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT , CHANGE IT AND STOP WAITING . 

Yes maybe some of your friends or what so ever never notice all your good side and your feelimgs , they just notice all your mistake , but always remember , you're not usless ! 

ok moving on , next point ; DYING . 

You want to end it bc you have enough of all those shits and everything literally EVERYTHING U JUST FEEL SO HOPELESS THAT NOBODY WOULD HELP U . but spare a thought for your family and those who care for you . 

Are you worth dying like just a small little of things?! What will your family members &relative action be like when you're dead?! Spare a thought for your parents , you're their biogical daughter/son . Your mum carry you in her stomach for 9months , and give birth and not giving up in th process of giving birth , so , why are you ending your life like this ? It just dont worth for all those lil problems . 

I dont care whats th problem you have in your mind now , clear it and stop thinking of it , stop thinking self-harming and dying solve th problem bc u're wrong . SO WRONG , stop thinkimg and smile , think of all th good memories you had , i know its hard but try it , bc i believe you can and you comfirm can !! 

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Remember to smile and put those problems away !! Have a nice day :-)