Insecure ¶noid + self-harming &dying .

#Np ; starlight tears - Kim Yoo Kyung(( Boys over flower OST ))

So long since i blogged !
So i shall start with a new topic ? ; Insecure &paranoid + self-harming

Apparently , i lose quite a number of friends . Basically just because of my attitude and stuff(s) and recently , i lost him , after you lose someone important , you feel like dying like literally you wants to self-harm and everything like literally scolding yourself for being useless and everything . So yeah , i have th same feeling . But when you self harm , think a thought , why are you cutting yourself or even abusing yourself ? You're you , you're not anyone else . You're perfect in your own ways , and do self-harming solve all these problem(s)? Th answer is definetely no . You're just abusing yourself and suffering more pain .

Maybe, you blamed yourself for not being good enough for th somebody . You cry because you're tired for not being good enough .. you feel like you're a burden to everyone literally your friend(s) your family member . You might think that you disappoint them but stop keeping everything to yourself , find someone you find her/him trustable to talk about it . Share it , dont feel embarass !

You might think , when you cut you feel a little better when you tried to cover its way hard . When you paranoid , you always think you're useless . I mean like why are you keeping all those problems to yourself ?! It wont help ! 

Next point , 

You feel that you're fat , terrible and some negative thinking , what you can do is change it ! Change for th better , stop waiting for miracles to happen . Yes , maybe i was once naive to think that miracles will happen lol omg im so naive . BUT DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT , CHANGE IT AND STOP WAITING . 

Yes maybe some of your friends or what so ever never notice all your good side and your feelimgs , they just notice all your mistake , but always remember , you're not usless ! 

ok moving on , next point ; DYING . 

You want to end it bc you have enough of all those shits and everything literally EVERYTHING U JUST FEEL SO HOPELESS THAT NOBODY WOULD HELP U . but spare a thought for your family and those who care for you . 

Are you worth dying like just a small little of things?! What will your family members &relative action be like when you're dead?! Spare a thought for your parents , you're their biogical daughter/son . Your mum carry you in her stomach for 9months , and give birth and not giving up in th process of giving birth , so , why are you ending your life like this ? It just dont worth for all those lil problems . 

I dont care whats th problem you have in your mind now , clear it and stop thinking of it , stop thinking self-harming and dying solve th problem bc u're wrong . SO WRONG , stop thinkimg and smile , think of all th good memories you had , i know its hard but try it , bc i believe you can and you comfirm can !! 

Need any advice ? 

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Remember to smile and put those problems away !! Have a nice day :-)

Self Harms

What exactly is self harms ?

Self-Harms is when you hurt yourself as a way of dealing with very difficult feelings , old memories or overwhelming situation and experiences . Th way you hurt youself can be physical , such as cutting yourself.. They can also be less obvious , such as putting yourself in risky situations , or not looking after your own physical or emotional needs.

Ways of self-harms .
- Cutting yourself
- poisoning yourself
- over eating / under eating
- burning your skin
- inserting objects in your body
- hitting yourself or walls
- overdose
- exercising excessively
- scratching and hair pulling

After self-harming you might feel better and more able to cope for awhile . However, self harms can bring up difficult feelings and could make you worse.

If you self-harm, you may feel embarrassed or ashamed about it. You might be worried that other people will judge you or pressurise you to stop if you tell them about it. This may mean that you keep your selfharming a secret. This is a very common reaction, although not everyone does this.

 

Why do people harm themselves?

There are no fixed rules about why people self-harm. For some people, it can be linked to specific experiences, and be a way of dealing with something that is happening now, or that happened in the past. For others, it is less clear. If you don’t understand the reasons for your selfharm, it’s important to remind yourself that this is OK, and you don’t need

to know this in order to ask for help.

Any difficult experience can cause someone to self-harm. Common causes include:

• pressures at school or work
• bullying
• money worries
• sexual, physical or emotional abuse
• bereavement
• confusion about your sexuality
• breakdown of relationships
• an illness or health problem
• difficult feelings, such as depression, anxiety, anger or numbness, experienced as part of a mental health problem.

Some people have also described self-harm as a way to:

• express something that is hard to put into words
• make experiences, thoughts or feelings that feel invisible into something visible
• change emotional pain into physical pain
• reduce overwhelming emotional feelings or thoughts
• have a sense of being in control
• escape traumatic memories
• stop feeling numb, disconnected or dissociated (see dissociative disorders)
• create a reason to physically care for yourself
• express suicidal feelings and thoughts without taking your own life
• communicate to other people that you are experiencing severe distress.

So , if you have any troubles . Dont be shy and come and talk to me . 

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I just need a break from life .

Sup ! Today with a new title yo :D .
' I just need a break from life '

Sometimes , you really feel that you need a break from everything , even your life . You're just super tired of everything that happened in reality. 

& you feel fucking paranoid about things , you think that everyone is like aim-ing you , or maybe they starts to talk about you , laugh at you &everything . You're just sad and you start thinking . Overthink kills .. 

You tried to smile everyday like usual , but you just can't. You felt so confused , you think that people treated you like replacement . You just tired of life , and people start to judge you and everything . They said that you're attention seeker , everyone think that you're weird bc you are actually dying alone . 

You want to be happy like last time , you miss your past . Flashbacks .. they're just appearing every second in your mind. You start to get more paranoid and stuffs , you're breaking down . And nobody cares about you , but you know , you're not alone , im here.

At this point of time , dont do anything silly  . You just need somebody to slove everything with you , someone you really trust and will support you in anything you do . 

Im here for you , whenever you need advice , always look for me . 

You can find me at ; 

Twitter ; @lxveburden

Facebook ; Isabel Xuan 

Instagram ; awesomistbel_

Or you also can stay private and ask me at ask.fm ; @Isabeloi_

The word ' F O R E V E R " doesnt exist .

What i rly hate ppl telling me is : "i'll be here for you 'FOREVER' dont worry , im just 8 numbers away ' 
OHMY , let me tell you something , ^ that sentence is a lie . 
You'll never know when th person is leaving , and obviously , nothing last forever . I used to believe that sentence , but oh well , now ? you want to know ? #ITZLIDDAT ! i dont believe now ! 

You can use th sentence for anyone , anywhere & anytime . BUT PLEASE , its a lie . A lie that most ppl believe in it , fall for th trap when that sentence isnt that true . That sentence is just something make you feel better when something bad stucked in your mind , or either you're sad . 

When someone tell you that sentence , you can choose to believe , but im just writing my experience here , you can say that its not like that , but soon , you'll understand how i feel :D
Ladies gentlemen , boys and girls , 
                                                    if you have th same experience as me , whenever you sees that sentence again , DONT BE TOO HAPPY ! let me repeat again , dont be too happy . Remember what makes you fall for th trap ? remember how th person dump you & doesnt care about you anymore ? YES , REMEMBER PLEASE , RECALL . 

FOREVER , DOESNT , EXIST . <--- yes , you now saw this sentence . you now believe in it alr . 

IF ... you really need somebody to talk to , you can always find me for advice . 
You can ask me at : ask.fm/Isabeloi_
or mention me for a follow back @ twitter first before you wants to dm me : @lxveburden
or you also can pm me on facebook @ Xuan FlyHigh 

REMEMBER TO SMILE , YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL/HANDSOME , GUISE ! :D CHEERS !!